I love the movie Groundhog Day! Seriously, I love it because it carries a beautiful message; it was someone else’s life who had to keep doing things over and over until he learned a valuable lesson about life. But it seems no matter how enlightened and meditative I become, I am unable to wake up to Sonny and Cher’s I Got You Babe, learn the piano or help a groundhog see its shadow. Every day is my own personal Groundhog Day.
The one question that keeps popping into my mind is, What am I supposed to be learning? What is the lesson?
Every morning, I wake up with more news of people being sick, dying and the non-existence of baseball season… oh yeah and head scarves. Trying to maintain normalcy is interesting during this time. We are making history. We are a part of history in a way I never imagined. The world is very different and so quickly.
I’m lucky if I dunk my afro under water most days. How many days in a row can I not comb my hair, put on athleisure wear and not one piece of jewelry before I crack? It took 3 weeks. I was so excited that my family and I decided that Blue Apron day was going to be us dressing up for dinner. I miss my clothes! (Update: We didn’t dress up for dinner.)
Don’t get me wrong. Life is good. There isn’t anything that a long drive or a brisk walk or spike ball can’t cure. I’ve found ways to get out and be active during this pandemic. I think it’s more about having the time to do some things on my bucket list, but not having the opportunity.
Whenever I feel down, I remember how blessed and lucky I am to be healthy, happy and safe. That I am grateful for my family and friends and the ability to disconnect, go within and take some much needed time off.
So what am I learning? I’m learning that every day is not the same, even if it feels like it. Journalling is helping me find and define my days, as well as providing me with a space to remember. I never want to forget this time or take life for granted again.
A year from now seems so far away, but I am looking forward to continuing to know myself and learn how to handle roadblocks with patience, grace and responsibility. I am looking forward to the continued happiness in the little things, which is something I used to be very good at.
What are you learning? Are you growing? Are you living structured or free flowing? Let me know in the comments below.
Until the next blog, enjoy this hilarious video about a real groundhog!